"As the disease spreads slowly through your body,
pumped by your heart to the tips of your arms and your legs,
your greatest fear was that your mind wouldn’t last,
your coherency and alertness would be the first things to fade,
as your hair thinned, as the weight fell off, as your teeth blackened,
as the lesions spotted your skin,
as you fell to your knees in the center of the stage,
as you offered witness to mortality in exchange for the ticket price,
as the lights blended into the continuing noise,
as all hope was finally lost.
Adrenaline carried one last thought to fruition.
Let this be the end.
Let this be the last song.
Let this be the end.
Let all be forgiven."
"You’re gonna die, we’re all gonna die
Could be twenty years, could be tonight
Lately I have been wondering why
We go to so much trouble to postpone the unavoidable
And prolong the pain of being alive"
“That’s the kind of movie that I like to make, where there is an invented reality and the audience is going to go someplace where hopefully they’ve never been before. The details, that’s what the world is made of” -Wes Anderson
I posted earlier about my 2013 resolutions, a recap. Here are some goals I have for 2014, some are incredibly attainable, others maybe not so much.
1. Work Less- I’d like to balance work/life better. All things considered I’d like to work less than 50 hours a week between my job, and my writing.
2. Eat Better and Less- I eat a lot, and a lot of bad stuff. I don’t want to say something like “I want to lose 20 lbs,” I’d settle for eating better food and less of it. 2014- year of Kale?
3. Be more active- I’m not going to run a marathon, I don’t even like to drive 26 miles. My goal this year is simple: 500 miles on my bike, 100 miles on my running shoes.
4. Travel More- I travel a good amount, a blend between work and personal and the ever popular business personal. This also ties into #1, working less, taking my vacation and not working on vacation… unless its a business personal trip.
Had a few 2013 New Years Resolutions (didn’t we all) here are how they shook out for me.
1. Get published on something other than one of my own websites. Nailed it. I was lucky enough to join Redband. I also joined Only Gators as a contributor/writer covering the Florida Gators.
2. Get a professional certification of importance. Nailed it. I previously had a few manufacturer certs, but I went out and received my Certified Technology Specialist which is an industry standard, pretty excited about it.
3. Get healthier. Somewhat Nailed It. I didn’t lose a ton of weight, or get in shape, but I quit smoking. I have been smoking since I was 13, so it was a big deal for me.
cap & gown in purple & gold
you’re 22 years old & a woman now you’re told
Aunt Beth & Charlie cut a check for the graduating niece
& you marked your independence with a signature on a lease
but home was a photograph you taped to your wall
it’s gonna be a cold white Christmas in St Paul
beer for breakfast who’s gonna scold
you’ve got your early hours dulled by the cigarettes you rolled
second shift as a fry cook that’s your holiday in grease
& you trudge to work through the snow in a coat down to your knees
& you linger at the twinkle lights as you pass by the mall
& count the days to a cold white Christmas in St Paul
feather down the nights get so cold
& you ignore the smell of mold as you smooth out the folds
when you’re on your own you’ve got no one to please
in a Minnesota city just as bare & as mean as the winter trees
but you’ll be damned if you’re the one making collect calls
on a cold white Christmas in St Paul
yeah it’s a cold white Christmas in St Paul
— Casiotone for the Painfully Alone- “Cold White Christmas”